Monday, 25 May 2015

Trapped in Love

I am sure many of us stays in a relationship despite how much the person they love hurts them
they cant seem to get out of that relationship or get themselves to break up with that person, even if that person is just toying with them, taking them for granted or taking advantage of their affection or perhaps that other person is too immature and cant seem to understand how much they are hurting us unconsciously but still ... 
like an idiot we love them too much to let go of them regardless of everything...
 This is for all of you ...

For Those Who Cant Read My Handwriting here it is:
Like A Voodoo Doll You Hold My Heart
Poking And Hurting Or Caressing Softly
You're The One To Hold The Strings
Making Me Crave You and Torment Me From Within
You Very Well Know All The Tricks Around
Just A Little Sweetness Is All It Takes
To Keep Me By Your Side Like A Dog Sitting On The Ground
But Is It All Am I To You?
A Little Puppet To Dance For You?
Satisfying Your Needs Whenever You Want
With No Say Or Whatsoever And Follow All Your Commands?
Sure My Love For You Is No Lie
But If That's How You Wanna Play This Game Than I Beg To You
Please Crush This Heart And Let Me Die...

Written and
© S.Naila Ahsan

Thursday, 21 May 2015

The Caged Bird

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
By William Henry Davies

Ever since i was a kid this line made an impact on me.
 In this life... when in the eyes of others its like u have everything in the world
and things would be going according to how any girl would wish for
everyone around you making decision thinking that this is what u really wanted 
but is it really so?
did they ever bothered asking the person in question what she wants?
i am sure this post might be sounding a bit ungrateful as if throwing away the blessing that we have 
In this life is happiness defined? i mean sure there are things which are very nice and all
but perhaps we don't want that happiness? perhaps we want to create our happiness on our own?
the Definition of happiness is different for everyone

nothing in life comes free...
not even the path others choose for us is as good as it appears to them
what do they know anyways? do they even know what difficulties that path has for her and how much she endures in order to bring forth that smile in that path which they assume as happiness 
in the end its not them who has to live this life. 
they have no idea what it feels like to be used and thought of as an option to use when you have nothing else or when you just want to make yourself feel better by her inspiring words
they don't know anything at all

they think that they can cage a bird that wants to be free
they think she would be satisfied settling for whatever is in front of her without experiencing how it feels like to spread her wings in the sky 
but that's impossible  
no matter how much love and care you give her or how good of a food u feed her
 the freedom to find her own path and hunt her own food is what will make her the happiest 
But the question is... how to say this to the people who loves her?
how to make them understand that she is not at all happy with the way life is turning out for her? 
Instead its suffocating every single day pretending to be happy when in reality all that doesn't make a single bit difference on her 
How to tell them that this is not at all what she wished for without disappointing them or making them sad
The only thing she wish for is live her life in freedom without binding herself to anything or anyone
Why cant they understand this simple thing?