Monday, 18 January 2016

Otome games obsession

It has been so long since I got some day off and when I finally get my winter holidays, I waste em all otome games 
Currently playing:
Once upon a fairy love tale
Oriental bride of the emperor
A Cinderella contract 
My Forged Wedding PARTY
And just yesterday I started out a new game called ' false vows, True love'
Anyone reading this would understand how much dull my love life must be that I gotta resort to anime games to fill my life with a slight bit romance 
But if you are an otaku and dream of anime guys to be real like I do then I am sure you will understand my feelings here especially when you get to be the main character of the story   (*´∇`*)
Actually on tumblr I have seen that quite a lot of women play these games and even use their real cash to buy the stories
But I am happy even with the free games   ヽ( ´¬`)γƒŽ

Let's start with A Cinderella Contract 
Its basically a Princely story on the surface but storyline is much more than just that unlike 'Be My Princess Gree' which i used to play 2-3 years back until my tab got messed up and I had to factory reset it and lost all my game data T-T
Anyway this story is not all Prince and princess but rather a serious story like a good manga you may have read
I started out by taking turkiye route which has Asena and Isuka to choose from, and as you can see its highly difficult to stick to one guy when both are so handsome >.<
Anyway currently I am going for Asena and almost nearing the end of this route and the story thus far has been rather touching and entertaining, but whole time I feel like jumping to isuka route because I feel sorry for him and he seems to be more my type :'D



Next we have Once Upon a Fairy Love Tale
Ok so this game really impressed me because its concept is totally different from the other otome games.
In all the other games the main character is always a commoner meeting some high class person , but in this story the main character is the VIP and gets all the attention
And secondly... I really liked how they used up classical fairy tale princes here 
Currently there are only 3 princes stories released 
When i had started there were only 2 
So I chose Luca who is the bad wolf from little red riding hood but here he looks so handsome and very much like an older version of ' Ikuto ' from the anime ' Shugo Chara '
The storyline is advancing pretty nicely here also
In this game the prince falls in love first that's another different concept and its not a love story but more like a magical fairy tale story which has a lot of action in it 
Again I am almost nearing the end of the Luca route , probably 1-2 chapter more to go 

Then there is Oriental Bride of the Emperor
Ok this story was a very mild story but I really liked it 
The storyline somewhat reminds of an old anime by Yuu Watase called ' Fushigi Yugi '
In this story also the main character picks a book from the library and lands into ancient time 
But unlike Fushigi Yugi the girl does not land into the book itself
This story is set in ancient time with the country in conflict with another neighboring country
This story was very much like some historical manga 
After the prologue I didn't get the chance to choose my guy but instead I automatically got Liyue the main emperor as my guy 
Well I don't really mind because his storyline was very sweet and even till the end i was sympathizing with him
I have finished one ending of his and now when I got the chance to choose another guy, I chose him again in order to get his other ending
Yes his story was that good
 But now I get rather lazy upon doing the game lessons  (◍•﹏•)

Ok now its time for My Forged Wedding PARTY
This game..  When it was released by 2-3 years ago, I wanted to play it really badly but we needed to pay for each chapter like all the Voltage games
Back then there wasnt as much varieties of Otome games as there are now and its story seemed really good back then
I was really excited when its free version finally came out 
But now I am so lost in the other games that I often to play this game 
Currently I am pursuing Yamato Yagami Route
He is a normal school teacher and the story is very homely kind and barely any action in it so far
And the Yamato seems like a pretty tsundre guy to me , also he is a very housewife kinda who is a great cook and good at housework which in my opinion is a pretty awesome quality in a guy and i would love to meet a guy like that 😫


Now finally the last and the latest game i have just started last night 
False Vows, True Love
This game was getting advertised on Once Upon a Fairy Love Tale and I couldn't help getting attracted to it
It looked like a very rich story to me on the surface
And the boy in it looked like an Older version of ' Ciel ' from the anime ' Black Butler ' excluding the eye patch of Ciel
Actually so far even his nature seems similar with him
Ok so the story as well as the game play is extremely different from all the above mentioned games 
The girl swaps places with a rich look alike friend of hers and finds herself in a high class Noble family, engaged to a rather cold man Akihiko who looks like Ciel :p
When the game got to interesting part i ran outta energy (Λ‡_Λ‡”)
It seems to have 19 hours of cool down ,so i guess i gotta wait a few more hours to read the next part? :'D


Anyway this turned out to be a bigger post than I had anticipated but yeah... That's how badly addicted I am to these games nowadays 

This image perfectly describes me right now ヽ(●´∀`●)οΎ‰

Monday, 25 May 2015

Trapped in Love

I am sure many of us stays in a relationship despite how much the person they love hurts them
they cant seem to get out of that relationship or get themselves to break up with that person, even if that person is just toying with them, taking them for granted or taking advantage of their affection or perhaps that other person is too immature and cant seem to understand how much they are hurting us unconsciously but still ... 
like an idiot we love them too much to let go of them regardless of everything...
 This is for all of you ...

For Those Who Cant Read My Handwriting here it is:
Like A Voodoo Doll You Hold My Heart
Poking And Hurting Or Caressing Softly
You're The One To Hold The Strings
Making Me Crave You and Torment Me From Within
You Very Well Know All The Tricks Around
Just A Little Sweetness Is All It Takes
To Keep Me By Your Side Like A Dog Sitting On The Ground
But Is It All Am I To You?
A Little Puppet To Dance For You?
Satisfying Your Needs Whenever You Want
With No Say Or Whatsoever And Follow All Your Commands?
Sure My Love For You Is No Lie
But If That's How You Wanna Play This Game Than I Beg To You
Please Crush This Heart And Let Me Die...

Written and
© S.Naila Ahsan

Thursday, 21 May 2015

The Caged Bird

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
By William Henry Davies

Ever since i was a kid this line made an impact on me.
 In this life... when in the eyes of others its like u have everything in the world
and things would be going according to how any girl would wish for
everyone around you making decision thinking that this is what u really wanted 
but is it really so?
did they ever bothered asking the person in question what she wants?
i am sure this post might be sounding a bit ungrateful as if throwing away the blessing that we have 
In this life is happiness defined? i mean sure there are things which are very nice and all
but perhaps we don't want that happiness? perhaps we want to create our happiness on our own?
the Definition of happiness is different for everyone

nothing in life comes free...
not even the path others choose for us is as good as it appears to them
what do they know anyways? do they even know what difficulties that path has for her and how much she endures in order to bring forth that smile in that path which they assume as happiness 
in the end its not them who has to live this life. 
they have no idea what it feels like to be used and thought of as an option to use when you have nothing else or when you just want to make yourself feel better by her inspiring words
they don't know anything at all

they think that they can cage a bird that wants to be free
they think she would be satisfied settling for whatever is in front of her without experiencing how it feels like to spread her wings in the sky 
but that's impossible  
no matter how much love and care you give her or how good of a food u feed her
 the freedom to find her own path and hunt her own food is what will make her the happiest 
But the question is... how to say this to the people who loves her?
how to make them understand that she is not at all happy with the way life is turning out for her? 
Instead its suffocating every single day pretending to be happy when in reality all that doesn't make a single bit difference on her 
How to tell them that this is not at all what she wished for without disappointing them or making them sad
The only thing she wish for is live her life in freedom without binding herself to anything or anyone
Why cant they understand this simple thing?


Saturday, 14 February 2015

Happy Valentines Day !

So the most Fret over and largely celebrated day among the teens as well as anyone who values love more than anything is finally here xP
I honestly never celebrated this day (Forever Alone Girl) and i don't really know how it must feel to spend this day with the one you love the most but still...
 For all those who truly loved someone with all their heart regardless of all the good and bad in them this song by Avril is one of the best one to express your feelings
For me also, this song hold not just one but few very precious memories.
Even if things are different now, these things can never ever change.
And of course this is for all the anime lovers out there also *-*
Lol i guess i am getting carried away xD 

Anyway, i don't know about you guys but for me this day has been unusually boring , had to empty out my room for painting, entertain my newly shifted little cousin and spent rest of the time crafting hearts with nobody to give it to :P (height of being forever alone :P)
But at-least i am not the only person alone today
Aligarh has been infected with swine flu preventing people from going out
So as a 'certain someone' said that if we cant enjoy this day today then why should they? xD

Anyway i hope everyone had a nice Day today ^^
and here is a little example of my lonesome heart xD
A Very Happy Valentine's Day everyone ♥\( *-* )
May You have an unforgettable day xD

#HappyValentinesDay  #Heart  #Romantic #LoveIsInTheAir  #Romance  #Teen  #Teenage  #Relationship  #Love   #ValentinesDay2015  #Craft

Sunday, 1 February 2015

Boring Start of February

February already here, and for everyone its time to get busy preparing for Valentine's day with their certain someones or to go find one.
And for a forever alone girl like me, the start of Feb only means that its time to get serious and study much more seriously since the day of the entrance exam of Aligarh Muslim University is rather near
I have no time to write any blog posts either lately let alone celebrate Valentine's day or even the Single Awareness day.
Gotta stop myself from getting addicted to manga during this period also T.T
Any normal Otaku can understand my feelings right now that how difficult it is to stay away from my precious anime world.
Its soooo damn boring right now studying these stupid subjects which makes me sleepy just looking at them and by restricting myself from doing anything which may get me off track from my goal, even took break from my gaming during this preparation period, and this boredom brings out the normally dead artist outta me by doodling around xD

Saturday, 31 January 2015

Rebound Relationships

Why do people opt for rebound relationships? 
Specially when they aren't even over their past?
Loneliness? to kill off emptiness by having someone around? Need someone to baby them out? Or falsely telling themselves that they are in love when in reality in every step with the current one they can only see the past rather than the person who is there for them?

What exactly is the point of  it anyway?
I mean if you aren't really over your past then you cant really fully love the person who is there for you

I know that it isn't easy forgetting our past and to be honest nobody can ever fully forget it but still...
How exactly is it fair on the person who is there with you in the present?

People don't understand that in the process of this whole thing they are just playing with the feelings of the person who is caring for them.
You may think that the other person isn't aware of it but you are wrong, they know all of it yet they silently stay with you, support you in everything, regardless of how much it might be hurting them because they truly care about you.

Nevertheless, its as good as using them for your own sake , and hurting them while trying to heal your own self
And i don't think that is fair at all.

I believe that we should fully let go of the past before moving on to next relationship or go for a rebound because these things can make neither you nor the other person happy  and it ends not too greatly for either of you.

Friday, 23 January 2015

What Does It Take To Forget?

I guess its easy to live life somewhat with positivity without looking back and moving forward
but is it easy to remove certain things from our memories  altogether? I suppose that's a stupid question to ask but I still wonder
how many of us can forget things and also remove them from our unconscious mind?
Is it even possible to do so?
I don't really know much about spirituality or however these things works
But when we have long forgotten things in our lives, why do they still haunt us in our dreams?
The tears which we never shed when the painful incident occurred
Why do they fall in the dreams so uncontrollably?
Why is it that it feel like we have no pain and our feelings all cold and we are living our life happily and positively
Yet in our dreams it hurts so much
that you cant breathe?
I keep telling everyone that its pointless running after something which you know you cant have
So why do we still do that?
Why cant we just grasp the Happiness which is right ahead of us?
Why does this unconscious mind takes over and makes us stagger around the negative path when we aren't even aware of it?

This might be my first most confusing post ever for certain people
who are just as clueless as i am when it comes to these things xD